“I miss our old church,” my husband said, “especially the music.”
“You do?” I said.
“But you never participated….”
“Yes I did.”
“I’d pray and say, ‘Lord I’m here. If You want to come and sit with me, I would like that.”
“Did He sit with you?”
My husband looked upward, “Sometimes… And I miss that.”
I had misjudged my husband—badly! During services he never took notes; I took copious notes—and organized them. After services, when the choir would have an unstructured time of worship, my husband would retreat to the very back row of the auditorium, which wasn’t illuminated. He would sit with head bowed and hands to his side. Me? I’d be up front, hands raised, dancing, praising, jumping… All motion and emotion, and Jesus’ mighty presence would visit me. I felt ashamed for having been so quick to judge my husband’s actions—or rather—his appearances of inaction.
Perhaps this is why God says in His Word, “For man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart.” (1 Samuel 16:7b KJV) I had been looking at my husband’s outward appearance, and judging his heart based on his worship style.
I apologized to my husband profusely. He hugged me and told me my exuberance blessed him too. We laughed, and to illustrate ‘worship’ my hubby took a staunch stand while I lifted my arms skyward. Never again would I allow myself to judge him or anybody else based on their worship style.
Friend, God loves you. In fact, He is crazy in love with you! Whether you choose to jump for joy or rest your head on the pew, God loves you just the same. When you are silent, He is there. When you are exuberant, the same is true. Receive His love, for not only does He know your heart He perfects it over time as you choose to come into His glorious presence.
Regardless of your worship style let this be your prayer, “That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings … I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:10a, 14 KJV)” Knowing Jesus intimately is what worship is all about. Don’t worry about the rest—especially appearances.
Lord Jesus, help me to know You with reckless abandon, regardless of my worship expressions.
Judging Appearances is a true story.
Copyright © 2019: Judging Appearances: Author Diane Virginia Cunio; Pen Name Diane Virginia: All Rights Reserved: https://www.vinewords.net/judging-appearances/3-min and devotion